Sa wakas, natapos rin report ko. Self evaluation: not bad, but not good either. Isang malakiang WALA LANG. No big deal. People will forget about it tomorrow as son as the next student delivers her report. Good. :)

Today is Monday and I have classes at 7 pm. Booth closing ceremony is also at 7. How cool is that?

My head's been aching since Friday. could this be just from lack of sleep or does this mean i have to get a *new* pair of glasses? aaaaaccccckk. noooo!! i had to wear glasses when i was in sixth grade, and i didnt enjoy it! actually, i only wore them when my parents were around. i wore them at home but i took them of as soon as i stepped out of the house. hehe. my eye doctor asked me to go back for check up after i graudated in grade school. i never went back. when i entered high school, i stopped wearing them. my parents eventually forgot that i had to wear glasses. either that or they grew tired of nagging me to put them back on. i just promised myself to take care of my eyes in any way i can, which explains why i dont read that much books anymore, textbooks and pocketbooks alike. eversince high school, i stopped reading pocketbooks, which was the primary reason why i had to wear glasses in the first place. along with that, i also stopped reading long pages of textbooks. i could only go as far as reading 2 pages before my head starts throbbing. up until now, i still use that excuse not to read my heavy weight nursing books, thus explaining my just-enough-to-get-me-to-the-next-level grades. everything was goin smoothly until BLOGGING came into the picture. Sleepless nights facing nothing but the computer screen editing, posting, and bloghopping left me with extremely strained eyes much worse than reading endless textbooks. so now id have to choose whether to quit my online life and save my precious eyes or save my online life and resort to wearing glasses 24/7.

being the rational person that i am, i choose: saving my online life and limit my online time to 1-2 hours per day. sounds fair enough? :)

MASAKIT BA SA MATA ANG KULAY?

is it better if i use purple instead?

I feel so drained having an average of 4 hours of sleep every night for the past 5 days. first, it was the 13-page resource unit which i had to do overnight because of that stupid midterm lec-lab midterm which was announced just 1 day before the exam! how can these creatures expect us to study for a midterm exam in one night?! yes, we know that the exam was "expected" since it was midterm week, but atleast they couldve made the announcement days earlier than the exam!! midterm exams are supposed to be announced 1 week before the exam date, not 1 day!! well, what's done is done. let's just hope my previous scores can compensate for that exam. :(

anyway, after the exams and paperworks came the founder's day celebration. it started with the Torch Parade last wednesday at around 7 pm. ended up at around 8:30, went around the booth area for a couple of minutes then went home. i was too exhausted too stay at the booth area.

friday came and it was another looonggg day. We were required to watch the Outstanding Sillimanians Awarding at Luce. We thought we had to be in semi-formal attire so rizza, madz, suzzie n i wore skirts. for all we know, it was ok to wear jeans. what a shame. we didnt finish to ceremony since it was also the open house for the girls' dormitories. we went out at around 11am to catch the last minutes of the open house. went to jua's room, ate junkfood, hung out for a while then proceeded to the next room. did the same things with 5 other rooms. :) then i ate lunch with mom and spent the afternoon with her and my aunt. our booth watching schedule was supposed to start at 4pm til 7, but being the late comer that i am, i arrived at 5pm. there wasnt much to do since there were so many nursing students at our booth already that we didnt really need to watch it anymore. so ate mar, suz, madz, rizza n i rented the improvised bicycle from the engineering booth. it looked like a kalesa except that it had 2 sets of pedals for two people instead of a horse. we had so mcuh fun riding around the booth area looking like little girls riding on a bike ofr the first time, shouting, screaming whenever someone was blocking the way since it had no brakes and the steering wheel was so wobly. the time limit was supposed to be jusr 15 minutes but we got so carried away that we didnt realize that we were riding around like crazy for almost an hour already. if that engineering guy didnt approach us, we woudnt have stopped. hehe :) after our ride has been "confiscated", we opted to have dinner since all of us were so exhausted from all that screaming and laughing. after dinner, we pretty much just hung out at our booth.

i met a handful of old and new faces that night. first was bj, suzzie's ex who now studies in cebu but came back to dgte for the weekend. then there was meggy, madz's boyfriend, whom she is madly, deeply inlove with. finally, after all the kilig stories we hear from her almost everyday, it's nice to see the princess's counterpart of the fairytale. :) i also met pagong, or rather, Engr. Bulandres, who graduated 2 years ago and is now an "international" engineer. hehe. i havent seen him for the longest time. i guess the last time i ever saw him was days before his graduation when we still used to hang out at the Stairz. i never saw him after he graduated. i just heard he took the board in september that same year and passed it as well. then i heard he was working somewhere in Luzon with his dad and mine. then i heard he also worked in papua and only came back to pinas for a couple of weeks before leaving for work again. and i also heard he got together with his childhood friend, eunice, who also hung out with us when she was still in college. their love story was sweet. i was so happy when i heard that they were a couple. they look good together. :) he introduced me to his friends: ken, gabby and earnest who were his batchmates in college and equally successful engineers at the present. they were nice. then i also met mara and mae, my high school buddies who came to visit the booth area.

we went home at around midnight. it was weird leaving the booths since people were only arriving when we left. although a part of me wanted to stay, my body was already complaining and my mom was already calling. when i got home, i dropped dead in my bed and woke up at 6:45. i was supposed to wake up early since the cheering competition starts at 7:30. i promised suzzie that i would be at their house at 7, but again, being the late comer that i am, i arrived at around 7:30. when we arrived at the sports complex, the entrance line was a mile long! buti nalang, we managed to make singit at the middle part of the line. :)

College of Nursing won again!! CHAMPION pare!!! We also got the Perpetual Trophy for being the champion for 3 straight years!!! woohooo!!!

but honestly, i think last year's performance was better. but then again, im not complaining. im still thankful that we won. :) Congrats!!!

*it's a shame i dont have pictures to share :( damn smart center takes so long to process my order for a new fone >: / *

New life, new layout.

Masakit ba sa mata?
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Nothing much to babble right now. Ive only done three things today: sleep, eat and go online. It's a sick cycle.

No classes til tuesday!

HAPPY 104th FOUNDER'S DAY SILLIMAN!

i was surfin thru the local Ebay and found this. i want it badly.

what's up with Teentalk and Sigaw? Bakit ayaw mag open?

i'm so hooked on online window shopping. ano pa ba mga online stores nowadays?

i have come to a decision to let things be, to let things happen when they're supposed to happen. life was simple before this happened, and i want that life back. i want that life where i dont have to think of things that doesnt really benefit me in any way. only i can get the life back. only i can give that life back. i believe in destiny once again. i believe that things are bound to happen for a reason. it is all written down. we just have to wait and see what happens next. yes, i know some people believe that it isnt enough to just wait and let things happen, they believe that we should act if we want things to go our way. in my case, i think otherwise. i believe that right now, the best thing to do is get on with my life and leave things as they are. after all, it wasnt mine to medle with, in the first place. but if destiny dictates our paths to cross, i wont turn my back on you. it will happen, in our own little time, in our own little place. perhaps now isnt that time, perhaps it will never be. ive learned to accept that we cant always have what we want. and i realized, it's that something you want so badly which you can't have. if this lifetime isnt for us, i guess i'll just wait for you in my next life...when we're both cats. :)

it's times like this...

hhhaayyyy....life is good.


i have recovered from my "depressive" state. :)

no, i didnt suffer from major depressive illness, it's just one of those days when the clouds are dark and you cant see the sunshine. :D thanks for all the encouragement. it is highly appreciated. :)

think of happy thoughts people!

*i should stop writing such vague entries and start writing something plausible and sensible.*

I finally have a .doc file of

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE.

its 800+ pages. :)


Who wants a copy?


Email me here.

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sleep has restored my mind into its near-to-normal state.

over the years, ive learned to weigh things down. ive learned to choose which ones to keep, which ones to fight for, which ones to hold on to, and which ones to let go. most of the time, i made the right decisions, but there were times when i just had to blame myself for making such a stupid decision, realizing long after letting go that what i had given up was what made me happy after all. moving on is the hardest part, especially when you know that soemthing better couldve happened if only you werent so stupid.

right now, im at the point of my life where i once again have to choose between happiness and sanity. im not sure if im willing to give up that something that means so much to me right now. yes, it's the biggest thing that makes me happy, but its vague, malabo and its out of my reach. i cant go on just living and hoping cause it would only drive me crazy, but i cant just simply let go of it cause it would mean my happiness and the thought of 'what if?' would haunt me forever. but on the otherhand, a part of me is also scared of what the future brings. what if this all ends up in a tragic failure? what if ive been hoping for something non existent after all? with all the emotional turmoil ive been going through these days, i dont think id be able to handle another heartache. but then again, what if this was that 'something' ive been dreaming of all these years?

i dont want to be waiting for nothing.
i dont want to give up on something not knowing its actually what ive been dreaming of.
i dont want to make another stupid mistake.