I need a miracle. I just learned that my research midterm grade is .5 lower than the passing mark. I was so in denial of the reality yesterday that fear only dawned on me this morning while I was in church. Im not sure if I can still make it. We only have one more quiz to go before final exams. I also cant devote all my time for research because NCM itself is also killing me! have to pass a 40-page case presentation paper and take a unit exam on monday. I'm not even sure if I can finish both on time. Aside from that, there's this P.E. research paper that I have to make before finals week plus my out-of-this-world litterature finals. I hate it because teachers give out our midterms grades two weeks before finals when there's no more time to compensate for our low grades. This isnt the first time. It has happened to me before. I was just lucky that we still had tw0 exams to make bawi. Now I only have the final exam. Im a total mess. I dont know where to start.

My clinical instructor is getting on my nerves lately. She's making me hate nursing even more. She's making me dread going to school each day. I never felt this way about nursing when I was with my previous instructor. This is the first time I really wished this sem would be over. It's just not fun anymore. I dont wanna fail. God help me.

This is a BLADDER STONE collected from an 80-year old man. Doctors and nurses swore that this has got to be THE LARGEST bladder stone they have ever seen in their entire medical career. Normal bladder stones are supposed to be the size of green peas. This one has the size of a potato. But mind you, it's a stone! As in bato! You drop it on the floor and it won't break. Solid toh!

Imagine a stone as huge as that inside your body, specifically in your bladder! Pano ka iihi nyan?! When you jump, you feel something solid moving inside you.

This can happen to you. Lack of fluids to disolve waste products can cause precipitation of substances which can lead to stone formation. In other words, pag di ka uminom ng tubig, yan makukuha mo! Whatcha waiting for?!

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happy happy... you three are nice people, or so i think. :D :D :D

ive got so many things i need to vent out but there just isnt enough time. pls pray for my research. di ko na kaya.

p.e, ncp, fhp, kardex, case press, chapter 3, and litt is just tooooo much. i need someone who can stop the time. kahit one week lang o.

Got these from my email.

Pwede na pala i-edit ang layout ng Friendster. You have to use css though. Di pwede ang html like sa blogs. Sayang. Pero marami nmang nagbibigay ng tutorials eh. And marami ring gumagawa ng layout for free. As for me, i did it the hard way.

THIS IS MY LAME ATTEMPT OF LEARNING CSS THROUGH SELF-STUDYING. you may laugh.

I got a sample code from someone who posted it in the forum then edited everything that needed editing. It's not copyrighted naman diba? Ii sa lang naman format nun. Yung details lang magkaiba. And besides, he gave out the code so that we could edit our own layouts, so i guess it's legal. It only becomes illegal when you copy the code and use it exactly like the owner's. Ang ganda ng outcome nung code ng may ari, but when imade my own na, it looks so uhhrrr....not good. it's not what it's supposed to be. Ang haba kasi ng code. hirap i-edit. eto tuloy, nagmukhang blog na ewan yung page ko. As much as i want to, di ko pwedeng tapusin ngayon yan. I have so much more important things to do. I shouldnt have started playing with my layout in the first place. Now im left with that unwelcoming layout. Parang mawawalan ng gana yung pupunta sa page ko. Hahayz. So please, bear with me nalang. Sikmurain nyo nalang muna yang layout ko for the moment. I'll edit that when i have the luxury of time.


Brownout dito bukas. Whole day. It sucks.

Nothing sensible to share. I just feel like a owe this blog an entry. :)

Went to school at 7 for our ward class quiz but ended up getting dismissed after 30 minutes coz our lovely teacher allowed us to finish our 2nd chapter thesis requirement for our research class instead of holding a class til 10 am. It's due tomorrow and we still dont have a decent conceptual framework to support our study. Actually, getting dismissed early is kinda useless since only 4 of us were in the same class this morning so the other 10 either had classes or were in the hospital for duty. I came home to do my part of the paper since i dont think i'd be able to do that tonight. Duty na naman tomorrow so i have to prioritize my hospital requirements. garg. have to go. got a lot of papers due tomorrow. damn time management.

WATCHA THINK?
After countless attempts to come up with a good, interesting topic (e.g. Effects of Spiritual Intervention to Surgical Pts..., Effects of Alcohol to the Overt Pain Rxns of IVTT Pts...., Teenage Pregnancy....), we decided to settle with this:

OR

yeah, yeah, i look stupid in both. But which one looks less stupid? :)

it's another weekend. it's actually end of another weekend.

yesterday was saturday, regular schoolday for us. Last friday, we had an overnight session at a classmate'shouse to finish the first two chapters of our thesis which will be due next week. Everything was settled last wednesday. Everyone WAS coming. We were supposed to meet at the college looby at 7 pm, by then everyone would be dismissed from class or hospital duty. 7 pm came, i was still at my cousin's room printing my articles for our thesis. Tawi texted me asking where everybody was. Apparently, he was the first one to arrive in school and nobody else was around. I texted him that i was on my way then i texted everybody to ask where on earth they were. There were supposed to be 13 heads in the lobby by 7 pm but, Rizza and Albert had a dinner meeting so they're gonna be late; Lloyd was sick so he wasnt coming; Ate Arlene just got off from duty so she's gonna be late; Joanna, Yang2x, Mark and Ate Jeryl were miles away having dinner in Bais; Rhodora was nowhere to be found. That leaves Tawi, Garner and Jaypeth and I texting each other's whereabouts since they were the only ones who really went to school. They arrived at different times and upon seeing that no one was around, each of them left thinking that the plan wouldnt push through. When i was done printing, i texted Tawi if he was still in school. Turns out, he got pissed and left and ate dinner at the caf instead. So i texted that we'd just meet up at 9pm since everybody was still "busy". I sent the same message to Jaypeth since he was already in school waiting for everyone. It would be useless if i still went to the college knowing that nobodyelse showed up so tamang tama, Fiona texted me that she was at Winnie's having dinner and watching a movie. So i decided to visit them while waiting for 9pm.

So yun, I ate dinner with them then we continued the movie they were watching, which was IF ONLY. Fi and I had seen it twice and we both hated the ending but because Winnie hasnt seen it, we just shut up and pretended that it was gonna be a happy ending. hahah. I didnt get to see Winnie's reaction bout the ending since Joanna txted me that they were on their way to fetch me.

Before going to Ate Tess' house, we bought junk food and beverages (softdrinks, mind you) to keep us awake the whole night. We arrived at thier house just a few seconds after Rizza and Albert. As always, we never start immediately. There's always the going-to-the-bathroom, watching-tv, chikka-update moments that get in the way. After a few minutes, Mark arrived. Ate Arelene txted that she wouldnt be able to come anymore since she thought the plan wouldnt push through and it was late so nobody could fetch her anymore. Then Ate Jeryl arrived so we formally started our brainstorming by turning off the t.v.

It was 11 p.m. and most of us were tired from hospital duty earlier that day. Everyone's brain was sort of malfunctioning. No one could think clearly. We ended up discussing the same topic over and over again without finding a solution to a single problem. Ate Jeryl and I dozed off before 12 midnight while the rest were laughing their heads off at mark's green jokes. I woke up when Tawi arrived at around 1 am. he was drunk! He woke us up one by one just to say hi then dozed off beside me. He left before everyone woke up.

Mark woke me up at around 8am to ask permission to borrow my fone. duh. heheh. After that, everyone started to get up. We attempted to discuss our thesis again with the hopes of coming up with a better output the night before. It was better but definitely not good. Aside from the hang over from stress, everyone was pre occupied with the research quiz that afternoon. So we all decided to just go home after breakfast. Yangyang brought me home.


Rizza, me (asleep), yangyang yangyang (security guard ng bahay)

czarina (shocked upon seeing us in their sala early in the morning) - czarina candid

The research quiz got cancelled and i dont know when the next schedule will be.

We still havent come up with a decent thesis to submit.

I cannot believe someone's trying to seel a Gmail account. Look o!

Sunday morning, rain is falling...not!

it's actually hot.

Today is free day. I miss weekends like this. Eversince i entered my junior year, the true meaning of weekend has been nothing but a figment of my imagination. Saturdays are regular class days and Sundays are spent for meetings, groupworks or whatsoever. I hate going out on Sundays. Wala lang.

Today i shall:

• legibly transfer my lecture notes to my notebook
  
• study for our 2nd ward class quiz tomorrow
  
• paint my white sneakers :)
  
• clean my room
  
• read procedure checklist of Water Seal Chest Drainage for tomorrow's retdem
  

Yesterday's exam was baaad. Very bad. Sa haba ng coverage, di ko na binasa ang interventions and everything about substance abuse, besides, di naman yun diniscuss sa class. GUESS WHAT CAME OUT OF THE EXAM?? Interventions and one whole page on Substance Abuse! What are the street names of Cocaine? What are the side effects of withdrawal from opiates? What are the signs of alcoholism? What the !!!!!! Buti sana kung adik sasagot nyan!

heehaw....

after one month of dreadful waiting...it finally arrived...

..my new toy..

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last week was spent mostly on ward classes. we will be starting the second half of our duty next week. TEAM NURSING beybeh. Medication Nurse at your service. :)

hello sleepless nights making pharmacards. :(

after 4 years of college, i starting to think whether i made the right career decision. i cant seem to visualize myself being a nurse in the future. it's just not me. me+hospitals=NO. i cant even figure out how i managed to survive all my hodpital duties considering the fact that it's not even extensive. how much more when it's the real life and there's nobody behind me to tell me what to do when something goes wrong? i just cant do it. why i took up this course is another story which is so hard to explain.

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on a lighter note, im currently hooked on HED KANDI. Cool site + Cool Sounds.

Sample pic naman dyan:

ate tess, rizza, suzzie, madz, n sheryl

(i guess i will be foerever absent in my pictures)

and this:

Look at how they abuse us.

Which reminds me, i have to study for that exam this afternoon. Tatah!