Friday, December 22, 2006
P.S.
Just so everyone knows. I REALLY DO NOT LIKE NURSING. I HATE HOSPITALS. AND I DONT WANT TO BE A NURSE!
I really shoudlnt be saying this, but Im just so tired of others trying to tell me what to do with my life. I never said anything during my college years. And even if I hated it, I chose to go through it because I knew that's what they wanted. I hate Biology. I hate Anatomy. And I hate Pharma. How can you expect me to love Nursing? Yes, I love helping people, but THIS ISNT THE ONLY WAY TO HELP OTHERS! I DONT WANT TO BE A NURSE! DONT YOU GET IT!?
I thought everything would be ok once I graduate from college. I thought I'd finally be able to do what I want with MY life. That's what YOU said. But that's not what's happening!
Im asking just 4 months off to do something non-nursing related and it happens to be something I want to do for myself, to try to see if I can actually make it on my own. Do I get it? NOOOOOOO. Because you want me to pursue Nursing and all those crappy foreign exams. I tried fighting for it but you never listened. YOU NEVER DO.
Just the thought of me becoming a nurse years from now makes me cry. BECAUSE THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT WITH MY LIFE!
Being a nurse is waaaaaay waaaaayyyyy down the list of what I want to become.
Call me crazy for wanting to give up a degree I've shed sweat and tears for. Call me ungrateful for wanting to give up 4 years of college which my parents have worked hard for. Call me stupid for not realizing that this degree will get me places and earn me a lot of money. The truth is, I DO KNOW and I do realize what I want to give up. But I dont want it! I dont want to get rich if it means being a nurse probably for the rest of my life. The thought of waking up and thinking about hospital duty every single day is just sad. That's not what I want goddammit!
Who cares about going abroad? You can all go and leave me here. I'd be fine! I like it better that way.
The exam results havent come out yet. I'm not hoping to fail. But right now, I dont really care if I do.
I know the people concerned wont be reading this, but I just want the world to know.
There, I feel better now.
I really shoudlnt be saying this, but Im just so tired of others trying to tell me what to do with my life. I never said anything during my college years. And even if I hated it, I chose to go through it because I knew that's what they wanted. I hate Biology. I hate Anatomy. And I hate Pharma. How can you expect me to love Nursing? Yes, I love helping people, but THIS ISNT THE ONLY WAY TO HELP OTHERS! I DONT WANT TO BE A NURSE! DONT YOU GET IT!?
I thought everything would be ok once I graduate from college. I thought I'd finally be able to do what I want with MY life. That's what YOU said. But that's not what's happening!
Im asking just 4 months off to do something non-nursing related and it happens to be something I want to do for myself, to try to see if I can actually make it on my own. Do I get it? NOOOOOOO. Because you want me to pursue Nursing and all those crappy foreign exams. I tried fighting for it but you never listened. YOU NEVER DO.
Just the thought of me becoming a nurse years from now makes me cry. BECAUSE THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT WITH MY LIFE!
Being a nurse is waaaaaay waaaaayyyyy down the list of what I want to become.
Call me crazy for wanting to give up a degree I've shed sweat and tears for. Call me ungrateful for wanting to give up 4 years of college which my parents have worked hard for. Call me stupid for not realizing that this degree will get me places and earn me a lot of money. The truth is, I DO KNOW and I do realize what I want to give up. But I dont want it! I dont want to get rich if it means being a nurse probably for the rest of my life. The thought of waking up and thinking about hospital duty every single day is just sad. That's not what I want goddammit!
Who cares about going abroad? You can all go and leave me here. I'd be fine! I like it better that way.
The exam results havent come out yet. I'm not hoping to fail. But right now, I dont really care if I do.
I know the people concerned wont be reading this, but I just want the world to know.
There, I feel better now.
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