nothing sensible to share. gusto ko lang talaga magtype, although inaantok na ko.
nag exam kami kanina. as usual, di na nman ako nagaral kagabi. whats new. i believe in the powers of cramming. i know its bad and i know it doesnt serve me well, pero ano magagawa ko, last resort eh. kahit may buong araw ako para magaral, hindi talaga papasok sa utak ko yung lessons pag di pa 1 hour before the exam. dont ask me why, ganun lang talaga. maybe its because pag nagaral ako the night before, may tendency akong makalimutan ang lahat na pinagaralan ko, lalo na pag objective. okay lang sana kung essay type yung exams kasi pwede pako magisip at magpalusot, pero pag objective, nagmemental block ako. i have such bad memory when it comes to school related information. i know cramming is a bad study habit but this is what keeps me kicking in college.

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i have this friend who was paired up with a classmate for our paperwork requirements in NCM. lately, 'friend' has been complaining that 'classmate' is so bossy. ok, bossy is not the exact word, sabi niya, "napakadominante niya". 'classmate' asks 'friend' suggestions about thier paperworks, but in the end, it's 'classmates's' ideas that gets implemented. so lumalabas, parang walang silbi si 'friend'. lumalabas tuloy, parang useless at irrelevant ang mga suggestions at ideas ni 'friend'. di rin makareklamo si 'friend' kasi baka daw magoverreact si 'classmate'. earlier tonight, 'friend' and i were talking about a requirement that was due this wednesday. i told her that partner and i havnt started making our paper pa. 'friend' told me that theyve started making half of their paper na. 'friend' told me that 'classmate' wanted to finish the paper tonight but 'friend' is too tired to do it tonight kasi kagagaling pa lang namin sa exam and 'friend' has been very stressed lately due to the additional errands that the student government is assigning her. gusto sana ni 'friend' magpahinga muna tonight, abyway, wednesday pa naman ang deadline and besides, natapos na nila ang kalahati. so 'friend' was telling me that she was gonna tell 'classmate' na di muna sila magtatrabaho tonight. after a few minutes, 'classmate' arrives and talks to 'friend' about their paper. as usual, 'classmate' TELLS 'friend' that they should meet tonight para matapos na nila ang other half. and all 'friend' could say was "o sige....." ako naman, pilit pinipigilan ang pagtawa. bakit kasi di makapagsalita si 'friend' pag si 'classmate' na ang kaharap? i must admit, medyo may pagkadominante nga si 'classmate' at minsan, parang bossy nga ang dating niya. pero sana naman, hindi nagpapaapi si 'friend' noh, pareho din silang students. at sana naman, maging sensitive si 'classmate'. maybe i'll tell 'classmate' about that one of these days, pag napuno ako. hihi. anyway, nung pauwi ako, hiniram ko yung fone ni friend at tinext ang "bakit di mo masabing 'tomorrow nalang'?" binalik ko sa kanya yung fone at umalis ako. when i was on my way home, nagtext si 'friend' at sinabing takot lang daw siyang magoverreact si 'classmate'. hahay..kawawang 'friend'...

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nga pala, i was invited to join the Art Committee for the Creative Pool sa department namin. nax. napakaflattering. si mark, ang chairman ng comittee at classmate ko, ang nag invite sakin. we were canvasing latex paints for the art therapy of our mental patients when he suddenly remembered that his committee lacked members. parang bigla nalang niyang sinabing 'uy, join ka sa committee ko". although napakainformal ng invitation, flattered pa rin ako. biruin mo, si mark, ang dakilang painter, ininvite ako. eh hindi naman ako artist, wala nga akong maipagmamalaking artwork eh. akala lang niya siguro artist ako kasi napansin niya yung handpainted t-shirt kong sinuot nung first day of classes. eh hello? parang straight lines lang yun noh. kahit grade school yata kayang gawin yun. kaso, naintriga siya dun kasi di niya akalaing pwede palang gamitin manually ang silk screen paints. dont get me wrong, hindi naman ignorante si mark, its just that he's more inclined to canvas painting than fabric painting. tipong pang masterpeice kasi yung trip niya. ako naman, pang mga-taong-walang-magawa ang hirit ko. kung anu-ano napagtitripan. minsan poster paints, minsan pastels at ngayon naman, fabric paints. pero niisa, wala akong maipagmamalaki kasi lahat trial n error pa lang. pagnasubukan ko na, parang nawawalan nako ng ganang ulitin. apathetic me.

anyway, excited na sana akong sumali, binigyan na niya ko ng student's form para sa member's file nila. fifill-upan ko na sana nung sinabi niyang nagpaplano siyang magtayo ng exhibit next month at yung mga art wroks ng members yung ididisplay niya. bigla akong nag "WHAAAATTT???" sabi niya, di naman talaga kailangang formal ang art works, kahit sketches or mga drafts lang daw, ok lang. kahita ano daw basta gawa namin ok na. tapos sinabi pa nung isang member niya na may nagawa daw siyang stained glass na art work. tatlo. tas dinescribe niya kung pano ginawa yubng stained glass. habang nagsasalita siya, feel ko parang lumiliit ako. naisip ko tuloy, di ako bagay sa grupong ito. ano ba mapapala nila sakin? wala! ano ba maitutulong ko sa kanila? wala! kaya tuloy, hanggang ngayon, di ko pa nafifill-upan yung member's profile ko. nagdadalawang isip pa ko kung willing ba talaga akong magpakapal ng mukha at sumali sa Art Committee kahit wala naman talaga akong talent sa art.